Concerning Family...

We cannot chose who we live with as our family...but we can learn to deal with them. The upside to all this is that you have an understanding of those kinds of people now. Which, somewhere down the road will probably help you. Understanding often does. I'm so sorry Shelbi. Just, endure. That's all we can do in the end.

Don't Believe The Hide

Oh, darling.. ]: I'm so sorry for what's going on.. I wish I could be there more to help you out... I wish I didn't finals and work right now so I could actually help you. But.. I really can't be of much help.. Except I can tell you that you're ot the only one.. My family is pretty cool now.. But that's nothing like how we used to be.. I used to hate coming home. More than anything. I couldn't stand anyone in my family.. I was always being put down and treated massively unfairly and unjustly. I can't EVEN remember my beatings from when I was younger just because there were just so many.. I was getting punished all the time and it was if I was getting punished for other people messing up too.. But don't worry, love.. Things WILL get better.. Just hold strong, be patient, like you always tell me to be ;P It may not change within your family, but at least when you ARE gone things will change and you will be so happy. You'll have a great time at Alexandria, I'm positive, even if I won't be able to enjoy those times with you.. /: But I'll always be here wating for you, dear... Always [:

I love you.

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Family

i want a responce about family here. I feel lost. Is anyones family as fucked up as mine. I blogged on my *insert creative blog title here* plz tlk

Good Bye, Halcyon Days

Tell me something.. Does that heart look healthy?

I think we can all clearly see that it's not, loves. And, furthermore, I think we can all agree that damage like that isn't easily healed. More than likely, a very deep scar will be what's left over..

To bring this in to the subject at hand; scars can re-open up when you have to deal with that which caused it. I remember feeling that very feeling represented in the picture... If not something more.. And trying to deal with the person that she was becoming seemed to be like pouring salt and acid and lye, overflowing to wound, degrading the state even more. It wasn't enough that I had to live without her, but seeing, before my very eyes, that she would never again be the person I loved; Just take my heart now and cast it away. That would've been much less painful.

Nerd time :P

It's like someone's casting Crucio straight on your heart. Or that Jane is using her ability to rip it open from the inside. I think this is exactly why Davy Jones cut his heart out in the first place. He had an image of Calypso in his mind, in his heart, and when he came to realize she was no longer that person, added in with everything he went through for her, he made the decision I almost wish I could've made. He just got rid of the very thing that caused him the capability of hurt. The heart itself. That's what we all try to do. We just try everything we can to get rid of the hurt. Sleepless nights, foodless weeks; anything that exhausts you enough to just get rid of the pain.

But, if we succeed at that, we'll never find our way out. If you don't release the hurt, let it burn, it will eventually cease. Sedation doesn't mean no damage is being done. In the medical world, you get sedated or medicated so you can't feel the pain, usually in which you're actually getting worse, only having the pain covered. In reality, the truth is that if you hurt, you're healing. Headaches, puking, fevers: all signs that your body is recovering. So let the hurt get out. Let the wound heal up. The scar may never go away, it may even rip open a bit at times, but when you've got that one thing, that one person who truly loves you and means everything to you, you'll hardly remember the scar. Just a blur from your past [:

So! There's always a calm before the storm. A farewell to the times of halcyon is at present. But through destruction, creation is brought anew. Floods, fires; they all break down, yet leave open wide spaces begging to be filled with something new [:

Been There Done That

OMG i so know what you are talking about. It sucks to watch the person you loved change into this awful person before your eyes. and the worst part is knowing you cant help at all. The only thing you can do is sit back and watch it all unfold. Even when you have to watch it happen while they are with a new significant other.

But on a happier note. I can ASSURE you he isnt it. and I know its hard to swallow that fact right now, but when you are with the right person you can feel something entirly different. I always thought i knew what love was and i was so heart broken when i lost what i thought was my other half, but it wasnt until I met Rich that i truly knew what love is. The right person should enjoy a lot of what you do but have enough differences too. You should feel comfortable around them and feel like you can tell them anything without being judged. And actually WANTING to spend time with eachother.

You will find him. he may be out there just as hurt and lost as you

What happened to you my dear?

After someone leaves, and shatters your world, and you begin to recover it is always treachorous to be around that someone that left. Well, I cannot help that. I am too deep into his life to break all ties. And I shouldn't have to. Sean and I have SO MANY mutual friends that it's impossible to never see him. Ugh.

And so today when he made natasha cry AGAIN with his stupid ass comments I came unglued. You are a completely different person now Sean Lemke. I feel like the person I loved is dead. I think he is. I don't even see him in your eyes anymore. And that's tragic, because that person could have changed the world with his kindness. This new person is too damn selfish and depressed to help anyone. He can't even help himself. It's...ridiculous. Tragic. Heart-wrenching. Tear-enducing. I miss him. I miss my darling who held me while I cried and used to trace little patterns on my back until I fell asleep and dreamt in his arms.

But this is not to be. So I guess my question is, where do they go? The people we love. Where to the parts of them go when they leave? Can they ever be repaired? Somehow, I don't think so...

Debut.

Hello there. My name is Jesse Sparrow. Long story short, I loved POTC so much I created an alter ego of myself as a pirate...sad story but true! Not important though...

I feel...eager.

For some of you who are not aware, I recently had a messy breakup where the love of my life (so far) and I could not make it work. Now he's...a zombie. I have not seen him smile once since our seperation. He has another girlfriend. But, he still doesn't seem happy.

However, I guess the issue I am looking to discuss here is, how does one define love? Is it when you consider that person in every action you take? Is it when you can't go five minutes without thinking about them? Hmmmmm....questions questions....answers?

Debating Life From God's Viewpoint

So! I have high hopes with this blog.. I'm trying to bring together people I know with high, intellectual, logical, passionate, heartfelt opinions. We're here to help each other, to help others. Those who need advice, help, or just a friendly word or gesture [: Allow me to welcome my first two compadres of this----

Fall Out Girl--- My darling love ^.^ Love you!!! She's really insightful, though she may think otherwise.. She's got her fair share to deal with, so she comes with good words and beautiful ideas :D

Jesse Sparrow--- A great, great friend [: She's helped me through countless heartaches and hurts.. And I've been there for her a fair trade [: If I needed a heart fix and had no one else to turn to, I know she'd be there :D

Well, I'll allow them to talk more about themselves as they feel fit...

Me? I'm no one special.. Just a guy that's gone through plenty of trials and temptations.. But I've finally found myself in this life [: I've found that other half of me.. And I'm here for anyone who needs me [:

So! Enjoy! Partake! And if anyone would like to join in, hit me up with an e-mail address and I'll talk it over with any others!! Let's expand so we can get all our minds out in the open! ;D

Peace!!