Without Problems...?

So, I am in the happiest relationship of my life. He loves me with all his heart, and I love him back! :) But, a part of me begs the question, 'where are the problems'?

I've had problems in relationships all my life. The biggest example being Sean's depression...and I have to wonder, without problems, without suffering, can there be passion?

I guess I'm not sure how to phrase this without sounding stupid...but I have to say that I find myself really tense. Sort of, waiting for the other shoe to drop? For the problems that I haven't been able to find to come to light...

Is this stupid? Have I been jaded by a shitty dating past? Am I stupid for feeling this way?

is this truth?

Not Perfect Is GOoD

My dear! Haven't you read everything I've written?? I know you have [;

Dating is the only way of discovering who your soulmate is. Well, not the only way.. You could be miraculous enough to find your soulmate right off the bat.. But, you and I both know that neither of us were one of those people. Unfortunately..

Misconception actually. We are not unfortunate! Like I've said before, these people we've had relationships with have helped us learn who we are, and in the end, who we want. Without Cassie, Chantell, Kenzi (Not your sister :P), Zoey, and everyone in between, before, after, friends, and family, I would have never become who I am and I would have never discovered all the things I want or need in a girl. I'd never have found my Shelbi and fallen in deeper than love with everything there is to her. Converse, drumming, acting; everything. Without my past relationships, none of it would be possible.

Did your parents ever tell you, "Dating is just practice for marriage" ? It's true along most lines. Dating is the means of finding yourself and who you are. The kind of people who marry the first person they date are pretty lucky if they stay together. People always change. And until you've discovered everything, or at least most, of who are, that's when you can truly find that person for you. Until then, sitting around isn't going to teach you what you enjoy in life and love! That is why you must form relationships that teach you these things

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How's that help?

So, to reference Rich's theory on love...

so what is the point of dating before we find our soulmates??? Is there a point? How do we know when we've found the right one?

Dont take their shit

PHH NO! dont u dare let them drag you around. they are getting off by putting u down hun. by standing up for urself and throwing it bak in her face there gettin intimidated by ur self respect! and watch out for them trying to be nice to you. bc its ALL just a show I PROMISE! ive been in the exact same position!!! they will fuck wid ur head making u think itll all be okay in the end and then theyll gang up on u and just throw u back down!
your doing the right thing girl!! hold ur head high and refuse to let them hurt you anymore! the guy u once loved is gone and i know its hard bc somewhere in ther u know he is still there but its not worth the pain itll put u through! u just need ur strong and true friends to get u though this :) and Rich and i are always here to kick sum ass ;)

Am I callous?

Ok so today Claire asked me to save her from the hatred of the drama dept...and i told her to fuck off...cause it's not my job to help her. We aren't that close...

Am i doing the wrong thing?

Don't Say That Name Again

There's one simple way of dealing with this situation:
Stop referring to him as your ex. Truth of the matter is; he probably won't be permanently out of your life for a long, long, long time. So, what you need to do is think of him as

A) A jerk to you.

B) A jerk to your friends.

C) Claire's boyfriend.

And when you take this point of view on him, instead of someone you were once the closest to, and infatuated with, you shall see that he's just another person in your life. One of whom's impact upon your life is based solely on you from this point on [:

Did that make sense..? Or was I too confusing :P

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