After someone leaves, and shatters your world, and you begin to recover it is always treachorous to be around that someone that left. Well, I cannot help that. I am too deep into his life to break all ties. And I shouldn't have to. Sean and I have SO MANY mutual friends that it's impossible to never see him. Ugh.
And so today when he made natasha cry AGAIN with his stupid ass comments I came unglued. You are a completely different person now Sean Lemke. I feel like the person I loved is dead. I think he is. I don't even see him in your eyes anymore. And that's tragic, because that person could have changed the world with his kindness. This new person is too damn selfish and depressed to help anyone. He can't even help himself. It's...ridiculous. Tragic. Heart-wrenching. Tear-enducing. I miss him. I miss my darling who held me while I cried and used to trace little patterns on my back until I fell asleep and dreamt in his arms.
But this is not to be. So I guess my question is, where do they go? The people we love. Where to the parts of them go when they leave? Can they ever be repaired? Somehow, I don't think so...
You don't need to worry about him making me cry. He's a big fat ass lately. But I can deal with him. He's pushing me, his only remaining friend, away. And he's going to suffer in the long run. Just remember, he's the one that lost the great thing. Not you.
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