Question?

How can I get my ex all the way out of my life? Sean is all over the place...he:

A) Is a jerk to me at school

B) Is mean to Natasha so of course I hear about it lots cause I'm her best friend. Which is fine I just wish he'd stop

C) His fucking gf keeps bringing him up!

HELP.

resolutions

i was so gunna just post almost the same thing u did lol great minds think alike ;)

1. This year i really REALLY want to work on selfless-ness. I want to become MORE selfless. Sometimes i make things revolve around me and it just causes unnessary stress and drama.

2. Letting go and moving on. I need to drop all in my past that isnt worth remembering. And I need to stop taking stupid little things to offense. If someone makes me mad i need to drop it and LET IT GO! i cant let anything go its so hard for me to do. Earlier this year someone in the hall ran into me (Bc he had another kid in a headlock and was being a dumbass)after they hit me and knocked me into a wall i muttered dumbass. Then he calls to me and says fucking bitch! I turned around and screamed IF I HAD SOMETHING TO THROW ITD B AT UR FUCKING HEAD! I had to have three people hold me down so i didnt go after him...and im still pissed about it! i cant let things go and i NEED to.

3. Im done taking peoples shit. I WILL NOT let anyone put me down or talk back to me and if that means being a bitch then so be it. I dont deserve glars and being put down.. no one does.

my resolutions.. itll be hard but if i work at it, itll make things better :)

New Years Resolutions?

Yeah, I've started to not do resolutions anymore cause I'm too lazy...

but i think this year it's to stop taking myself so seriously. Relax...just...simmer down

What are yours?

Concerning Family...

We cannot chose who we live with as our family...but we can learn to deal with them. The upside to all this is that you have an understanding of those kinds of people now. Which, somewhere down the road will probably help you. Understanding often does. I'm so sorry Shelbi. Just, endure. That's all we can do in the end.

Don't Believe The Hide

Oh, darling.. ]: I'm so sorry for what's going on.. I wish I could be there more to help you out... I wish I didn't finals and work right now so I could actually help you. But.. I really can't be of much help.. Except I can tell you that you're ot the only one.. My family is pretty cool now.. But that's nothing like how we used to be.. I used to hate coming home. More than anything. I couldn't stand anyone in my family.. I was always being put down and treated massively unfairly and unjustly. I can't EVEN remember my beatings from when I was younger just because there were just so many.. I was getting punished all the time and it was if I was getting punished for other people messing up too.. But don't worry, love.. Things WILL get better.. Just hold strong, be patient, like you always tell me to be ;P It may not change within your family, but at least when you ARE gone things will change and you will be so happy. You'll have a great time at Alexandria, I'm positive, even if I won't be able to enjoy those times with you.. /: But I'll always be here wating for you, dear... Always [:

I love you.

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Family

i want a responce about family here. I feel lost. Is anyones family as fucked up as mine. I blogged on my *insert creative blog title here* plz tlk

Good Bye, Halcyon Days

Tell me something.. Does that heart look healthy?

I think we can all clearly see that it's not, loves. And, furthermore, I think we can all agree that damage like that isn't easily healed. More than likely, a very deep scar will be what's left over..

To bring this in to the subject at hand; scars can re-open up when you have to deal with that which caused it. I remember feeling that very feeling represented in the picture... If not something more.. And trying to deal with the person that she was becoming seemed to be like pouring salt and acid and lye, overflowing to wound, degrading the state even more. It wasn't enough that I had to live without her, but seeing, before my very eyes, that she would never again be the person I loved; Just take my heart now and cast it away. That would've been much less painful.

Nerd time :P

It's like someone's casting Crucio straight on your heart. Or that Jane is using her ability to rip it open from the inside. I think this is exactly why Davy Jones cut his heart out in the first place. He had an image of Calypso in his mind, in his heart, and when he came to realize she was no longer that person, added in with everything he went through for her, he made the decision I almost wish I could've made. He just got rid of the very thing that caused him the capability of hurt. The heart itself. That's what we all try to do. We just try everything we can to get rid of the hurt. Sleepless nights, foodless weeks; anything that exhausts you enough to just get rid of the pain.

But, if we succeed at that, we'll never find our way out. If you don't release the hurt, let it burn, it will eventually cease. Sedation doesn't mean no damage is being done. In the medical world, you get sedated or medicated so you can't feel the pain, usually in which you're actually getting worse, only having the pain covered. In reality, the truth is that if you hurt, you're healing. Headaches, puking, fevers: all signs that your body is recovering. So let the hurt get out. Let the wound heal up. The scar may never go away, it may even rip open a bit at times, but when you've got that one thing, that one person who truly loves you and means everything to you, you'll hardly remember the scar. Just a blur from your past [:

So! There's always a calm before the storm. A farewell to the times of halcyon is at present. But through destruction, creation is brought anew. Floods, fires; they all break down, yet leave open wide spaces begging to be filled with something new [: